River's Log -- Star Date : 3 months

Our Sweet River Boy-

We can hardly believe that you are 3 months old today. It's crazy how life has flown by since we got serious about having you. It's feels like it all happened in a flash. Who knew a flash could result in something so cute and lovable as you. We' re just so grateful. 

You keep growing and growing. We finally have an 8 lbs baby, make that 8 lbs 2 oz. 

And the Best thing is you've begun to Smile!

You make really cute noises while you eat and fall asleep. It's like a sweet humming sound. Your cheeks are so kissably-chubby. They MUST be kissed or squeezed all the time, they practically demand it. You love bathes, hate having your diapers changed and a new development is that you're allergic to milk protein. Arg! You have your father's chin and my ears. Your hands are huge and we swear your hair has a strawberry tint to it.

You are such a sweet boy with the sweetest disposition to match. 

Charlie loves to lick your stinky feet (you're officially part of the pack, so welcome), which sometimes is the only thing that can wake you up. You don't mind his barking. You usually sleep through it. Charlie loves to go wherever you are. He skips down the hall with us to change your pants, lays patiently next to us while you eat, and has now started to bring you bones and balls to pay with him. I hope you won't mind sharing your toys with him, because I don't see any way around it. I have a feeling you two are going to be as thick as thieves and just as mischievous. 

River, you are so lucky to have a Daddy/Poppa that loves you so much. He's working so hard to balance work, school, and life. He gets up with you every morning for your 5/6am feeding so he can have some special time with you while i get to sleep (thank you sweetheart). You cuddle up together and you sleep on his chest. You always sleep so soundly in your daddy's strong arms. Skyler changers your diapers willingly. He only  puts up a little bit of a fight if they are poopy. He's eager to be a part of taking care of you and so sweetly makes sure that I am supported and looks for opportunities to help me, give me breaks, or let me sleep. So really River, we're both lucky to have someone so wonderful love us so much. I love how he looks at you. There is a softness in his eyes that's meant just for you. He already has adventures planned for this summer. I just hope your big enough to keep up. :)

You and me River, well even though your our baby . . . your my baby. You've become a part of me. I don't feel right if you're not near me. It kills me when you cry, even more so when i can't fix it. One of your smiles sends me to the moon, and your sleepy face warms my heart. I feel solidly the weight of responsibility of being your mom. I've said many prayers for help and for you to be blessed. I feel a quiet confidence though and I know that I am meant to be your mom and that I know you like no one else. I love cuddling you day and night. I love to sneak you into the bed in the morning and sleeping for a couple of hours with you tucked in my arms. I love how you look at me when I sing to you. I love kissing your sweet little face and stroking your soft downy hair. I love holding you in my arms, with your head on my shoulder, feeling you breathe. I love how you rest a hand on me while you eat and how your eyes flutter when you're falling asleep. I love that you're such a good eater and such a little fish in the bath. I love how you kick your legs while you lay on your back and fall asleep instantaneously when we put you in your car seat. I love your soft blue eyes, cute button nose, and sweet little mouth.

When it comes to you my baby, I love. I love. I love. 

We love. 

and love grows.